WILL IT EVER STOP? Why can't I let go. I am not sure I want to be married any more. I can't live with a person that has such a low self estine that she allows herself to be used and yet still thinks she is too good for me.
Hey Husband, Haven't posted in a while, but I wanted to throw my support your way. The feelings, triggers and wondering you are experiencing are normal and so much more magnified at this point because of the limbo you are living in. The whole relationship is just a big question at this point (and has been for a long time), so I think it is expected that you would be feeling this way.
We can't predict the outcome of the weekend and you can't even say that it will work or not work. In my case, we came out the weekend with both of us having the impression that it was a huge success, but it was fairly short lived. I don't mean to bring anything negative to you, but try to look at the weekend as the start of something new. At least you are moving on in a better direction. Whatever that may be it is better than where you are currently. If you move forward together, that's fabulous. If you don't, you know you've gone above and beyond for your family. Feel good about that. Relax a little and go with the flow. Stop putting pressure on yourself.
