Will your H go to MC with you? It seems that he should agree to this since he seems so unclear about what he really wants. It's not fair to you to have him changing his mind all the time.
I know it's easy for me to say.
I have found that as painful as my own situation is now with H gone, being in limbo with him here was worse.
Me/X-H: 47/48 T 19 yrs M 16 years D14 D10 ILYBINILWY: 10/07 H moved out 6/08