haunted by memory of Ow

[LuvMyHusband]

Thanks Saffie,
I read through some of the other threads and it seems like what I am feeling is very normal. That helped. Isn't it nice to know we aren't nuts?? lol. It does hurt like heck to know that he had feelings for her. The way he talked about her was like salt in the wound. Good grief. He only knew her for about a month. Any one can be saintly for a month!! Does he think it helps me to feel better to know that he had an A with a NICE person vs. a nasty one?

I was doing pretty well, so was our R until this stuff came to light. I didn't even feel distant from him after he first told me. I think it's because I expected him to be honest and remorseful and he just doesn't seem to be. He almost seems to justify what he did, "we were seperated, I as D you". Gee, I didn't know that. I feel angry, hurt and disappointed that he did this, like you said, it's like a betrayal again. What, did I make it too easy for him?

Anyway, I know I need to get a grip. I would like to hear him sincerely apologize to me. He knows me, he has to know that I havne't been myself and that i am hurting. I am going to see a doctor today for meds so hopefully that will help.

Thanks Saffie.