Haven't posted in awhile. Let's see where do I start....

B and I are not seeing each other anymore. This is definitely for the best. A part of me wanted him to be what I was looking for that I didn't want to see him for what he really was and he really was not good for me. There has to be a decent guy who will treat me with the respect that I deserve. I'm not wasting my time on a guy who doesn't have his sh$t together...doesn't really appear to want to get it together...and didn't seem all that interested in me anyway.

Saw X for the first time in 7 months a week ago. He's still sad, messed up, etc. Here's a story for the book :-)
M: I heard you were engaged?
X: It's a long story...OW's dad doesn't approve of us having a baby and not getting married so OW wears an engagement ring but we are not getting married. I told her not to wear it around my family, but she did at the baptism.
M:Ummm, doesn't that sound screwed up to you? In other words, she thinks you are engaged and you don't think you are?
X: Yeah, you can mark my words I will not be getting married in a year, two years, three years.

You think he's still crazy? Glad to see that him and OW have this great relationship built on honesty, trust, life-long commitment, and love. Whatever, I'm in a good place with him. He knows he screwed everything up and would in a heartbeat erase it all if he could....too bad for him that life doesn't work like that because he really did lose the best woman he will ever have when he walked out on me. He also mentioned that he now realizes that you can make it work with anyone...he should have figured that out two years ago when he was actually with a woman that he loved and that loved him.

I have decided to put my name in the running for a 6 month job opportunity in Switzerland with my company. I figured no time like the present for me to try to take on this once in lifetime opportunity. I should know about that in the next few weeks because it starts in September.

M:28, D finalized: 8/28/07
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