Trouble DB'ng Again..How Do I Forget?

[water2moon]

ok so here I am again..I tossed and turned for about 2 hours..Maybe it's just me but I have a feeling that H is doing this on purpose..I mean if he knows that showing me some affection will make me happy then why doesn't he do it? He did this for a mere 2 weeks and then blamed me for stopping. Said I wasn't satisfied because i continued to ask him questions about the A while he wanted me to just forget. So i'm laying in bed and he has his back turned to me, he sleeps more than 12 hrs and I feel that he's either depressed and missing the OW or he's with her again..But let me say this..If I find out he is with her he doesn't deserve these kids..The OW tried to hurt them with the texts she sent them and he told me he hated her after that..I personally could never respect someone who did that to my kids..but because the kids never actually saw them maybe he can find it in his heart to forgive her? Maybe he is still with her and here I am trying to save a marriage that can't be saved..I am so torn..