Just remember, you may have alot more positive days/nights if you would just LET God help you, and you just LET go of all this.
You've been trying to control and manipulate all of this, and you realize that. You've also seen the outcome everytime you do this..and that will never change unless YOU do.
I kept running into the same brick wall in the beginning too , but Honey...you're definitely the Master of Brick Bumping!! LOL
Stop making excuses for doing what you do, and just let it go.
Protect yourself financially, and let God do the rest, for both you AND your H. You have to see by now that your way of doing things is NOT giving you peace of mind or any real sense of self-empowerment. Start respecting yourself, and stop worrying about what your H or OW thinks, feels, etc.
Getting out of your mind what they may or may not be doing is hard, I know. But really... who really wants to know. And more than likely, it's probably not nearly as exciting as our imagination makes it out to be.
Get that camper, and have a great time all by yourself!!!
Women are angels. And when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly...on a broomstick. We are flexible
