Thanks for your response everybody. It really helps me to get other's perspectives. I want to make sure I'm looking at my situation as objectively as possible.
I can't really make heads or tails out of my stbx's behavior. She called me today and told me she is going to go a head and have her L fax our final agreement on the dissolution to my L. She's told me this several times over the past few weeks while at the same time throwing hints about reconciliation. I just say OK every time she says that, but my L has not received anything from her L in over a month. I kind of wish she would go a head and do it, so I don't have to feel this guilt that I can't seem to shake. She's not making me feel like a wanted man, she makes me feel like just somebody who's a good provider for the time being. Screw that! You want me back, you show me the mind blowing, passionate, animal attraction the OW shows me! She makes me feel like a wanted Man and you make me feel like ..... ? .... ? like NOTHING! No thanks!
Why doesn't she finish what she starts. It's almost like she is giving me some ultimatum... Make up your mind Tom, do you want to reconcile or not?
Just submit the papers so I can sign them and get on with my life. Your not the prize anymore, I am!
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
