Well just got off the phone with the W. I am not sure why she called but she just wanted to talk about us. She really wants to get along and such and I said I totally agree I would much rather be friends than just people who had a child together...if that makes any sense.
I said I want you to be happy in life and if this is the decision that will get you there then I will not stand in your way. We talked about the stuff that has happened between us, and she even cried and kept apologizing for hurting me!! This is the first time she has ever showed emotion since the bomb.
My brain is full of so much right now but I told her that I was going to be a happy person no matter the outcome, I will move on with my life with or without her,preferably with her but I guess we don't get everything we want.
I guess only time will tell if this is it or not, hopefully she will wait longer but I have the gut feeling that this is it.
In no way am I giving up on us yet, but I am keeping up on me and my kids, right now that is all I have.
Oh well I need to get some homework done and then off to bed.
