my crazy mess part 3...

[christarn]

FG, he called me...asking, about the pool...it lead into a R/M talk...he said he is done, he was very angry, he said he could never trust me again, i needed to let go of any idea of this working out...i tried to explain some things...he just kept saying if i really loved him i would have never done this to him...he will never be able to forgive me

he wants to be able to talk about a D, and not use atty's....i said no, i still had hope for us...he told me i was nuts. i said if he really wanted a d, he could talk to his atty, he said he couldn't afford it, like i could...i feel as if that was a bs excuse...

he kept saying it was time for us to move on, it's been a year and a half....he could never trust me again...we are never going to be again...

he said we needed to talk more about what we want....i said i don't want a D...so there wasn't really anything to talk about...he just kept saying, there would never be a marriage between us again...i should have thought about that before i walked...i told him i just was trying to give him space to figure this out...he said he had, and there was no way he would take a gamble on me again...i caused him too much pain

oh, FG, i was not expecting this...i'm freaking out....help me! before i go nuts!