I got H a card and 2 of his favorite special sweets as well as a subscription to this magazine that he has said he'd like to have (He was surprised I remembered).
h4h, I know the sleeping thing sounds kinda backwards but we don't cuddle or touch or anything so it is painful for me to have him there. We both said we want it to MEAN something when we sleep together. The "just friends" thing is just too much anymore. Yes, I do think the performance anxiety is really something that weighs on him.....hard for me to understand....I'm like "if ya want it, come get it, and enjoy it." I think the way he is routine made it good for him to not be there anymore, too. I dont want his new routine to be come to bed, and then go right to sleep.
I do think he is depressed in a way, but he copes by ignoring things in hopes that they go away. The not being able to write in the book made him realize what he had not been doing....hard to deny when you are unable to complete some very straightforward love statements. I didn't mean for it to be that way....I really thought he would like it because I thought it would trigger things to help him communicate. Thanks for your prayers, too. We really need them.
Lost, Thanks for checking in on my post and your prayers, too.
