Jack: what do you mean? I'm confused about the desire thing. If you mean anything involving my friend Kris, don't worry 'bout that. We've always been like brother and sister (one of my jobs in college was steering her away from the DKT house when she was drunk at 2 am). It would be "icky," even if I were truly a single guy. She's not unattractive, she's like...my sister. Eww.
And well, I'm being especially cautious with how I speak and behave, seeing as how ONE of my kids' parents has to act like a mature adult with morals. Despite the idiotic advice of some of my male friends, I don't see how MY committing adultery lessens the pain caused by my wife's actions. Besides, my research background was in infectious diseases...do you have ANY idea how scary it is out there? Chlamydia and herpes runneth amuck! No thanks. I'll stick to celibacy 'til wifey comes back.
Speaking of wife, she called to talk. I sent her some camera pics of the kids that I took while we were at the local museum/science center today (I'm a science geek...sue me). One pic of the kids building robots, one of my youngest in a beaver costume, and one of my oldest holding a fluorescent bulb that was lit by him holding a Tesla coil in the other hand (THAT was cool!). She loved the pics. Nice brief chat, some nice laughs. She asked about my job situation & I told her that the school board at my prospective new district votes on me tonight and that I should know the results around 9 pm. She wants me to call. I told her that I might just text, since the kids & I will be watching "MST3K: The Movie" and eating popcorn. I've already blown the kids off by accident a few times with long phone calls. She said that was fine but asked me to call tomorrow. Weird.
Now I'm finding mornings to be the bad time for me. I don't know if it's that brainwave thing, but my mind is more creative and active as I'm waking up, and I started thinking about how my birthday is next month...and I'll miss my wife, and how our anniversary is the following month...crap, that's going to hurt...and what about Thanksgiving? And Christmas? Within five minutes, I had worked myself into a depressed frenzy.
I've started the "Thought Stopping" technique from Michele's book, but it's hard. And I keep telling myself to just focus on getting through the day. But it's hard. For someone who is allegedly doing so well, I still have moments of total anger and sadness.
Me: 47 Kids: 2 boys, 14 & 8 Bomb: 5/5/08 Married: 16 years, together 20 Divorce final 8/11/10 I remarried, to an amazing woman: 3/17/12... "Once in awhile, in an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale"