Well I don't know what else to do right now. One thing I realized was how I have been pre-disposed to never quitting. For me letting go has equaled quitting. I spent the last 10 years basically quitting on things and I hated being that person. So quitting is something I have a hard time doing now, like it's against my nature or something.

That said, I'm not sure I know how to let go and it not be quitting. It took a long time for me to learn doing nothing is doing something. Maybe I haven't learned that lesson after all.

Definitely time to do some serious praying and meditating.

Last edited by catfan; 07/08/08 08:42 PM.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa

Me-44
W-42
S-11/8/06, D-9/12/08
M-19 1/2 yrs
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Bomb-10/06