Ian, by the way. We will not see on the religion aspect eye to eye. Well let me tell you something. There is only one true Church and it is Catholic. Now if you want to loose focus and go down that road, I will roll.
Phil, no religious talk for me thanks. I happen to be Jewish, I roll old testament style and it doesn't conflict with those of you who roll new testament. AmyC and I have had wonderful communication for a very long time because I respect all choices of religious beliefs. Bottom line we all do what we need to do in our hearts and we each find our strength in our own faith. I happen to love being Jewish other than the no Ham rule (I am a bacon freak and veggie bacon sucks)
Look Phil, I am going to tone down a bit here and tell you some things that I think about you. No advice ok, I completely understand overwhelmed.
I like you Phil, you are spirited and you are consistant. Many people do not have that ability.
I think you have stellar moments, usually when you open yourself up a bit and show the real feelings that you are having. It is hard to admit that you were crying, that this hurts, that you are unclear on the future and that scares you.
You come across to me as a man who truly loves his children. To me there is nothing more powerful for a man than the bond between him and his offspring. As strange as it sounds I thanked my W for leaving me at one point because of the relationship that I have forged with my children because of it. That is what keeps me coming back to you, I do see how much you love those kids and I love that about you.
I know you love your wife, I know you believe in your vows and have convistion to make them work. This is also another positive side for Phil. Your ability to want to honor and respect your word before God. Good on you and it will serve to help you stand when things are tough.
As far as the advice goes Phil, I am going to lay low for a bit and try and keep my posts limited to some more introspective stuff for you ok.
Understand that my approach with you is because I made a lot of mistakes and they are truly one's that I now regret. I will probably never know if my W would have come back or not. The good thing is, my faith tells me to have no regrets anymore and what God intends to be, will be. I read the book of Job and had very clear vision as to what Faith really is and tried to stick by that.
Hang in there Phil, I know it's hard, I know you are hurting, and I also know you will be ok.
(I am a bacon freak and veggie bacon sucks)