Upside thank you for post! I think you are right...I think that him NOT being there when Torito died and I had my surgery really DOES make him feel his guilt acutely.
You are also right when you say I have no idea what the future has in store as well...
Yes, I must let it go, once again and see what happens...
sigh....
V
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller