wow Ms Ladybug...sounds like you have hit a place that you feel you cant move form. are you sure this is what you want? my H was finally able to open up to me and acknowledge his part- he said it was mostly him. i had prayed for so long that he would take ownership and he did- but only because i was patient, loving, quiet, gave him space and it is still all about him and his needs. i tell you this bc i was and still am shocked at what he was able to tell me.
it also seems that your H really wnats things to work do maybe the LRT for a little? or is that more of the same?
i am here for you and i am sorry things are so hard right now ....
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