Neil, I think I can. I need to think smaller steps for now. I think another one would be sitting in the same room with me when we are both home with no R talk.
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So you have to ignore page 11 of my thread due to a post posting multiple times...
So the snoop delivered and left me wondering...is my WAW thinking she is a lesbian? Where the books a trap courtesy her lesbian friend? More questions than answers at this point but it does explain a lot. The question is why and I have no control over why. Not easy to accept but I must continue doing as is, act as if, and detach further and stay strong for my kids.
I had to get out tonight to meet a colleague for dinner and it's about time W does some chores and spends some time with the kids when she's not drinking like last Saturday. Funny thing is, I left while she was trying to catch a zzzz and my 2s was crying for a cookie. I had told him no because he barely ate dinner but as I was leaving the W caved. You can tell she's exhausted and is putting on an act with the kids. I know I shouldn't have left but she said okay and I did not want to be there. Still wearing my work clothes, looking nice, eventhough I spent the day at home with 4d because she is sick.
So, no need for a 2x4, I know I should not have snooped, but is there ever a good time to confront W to ask if there is OP involved? Is this normal? Are WAWs that emotionally fragile that repressed childhood issues can be released and manifested this way? Or am I just that bad in the sack and made my W switch teams?
Chris
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Okay. I am feeling kind of lonely and isolated now. I went nome after dinner and once again, my W has friend over with her talking on the back deck. Wouldn't normally be a problem but my W is rarely home now without her friend in tow. To make matters worse, my sick 4d was on the couch stirring and crying a little and was getting no comfort. So, I comforted her and took her to bed and stayed with her until she feel asleep and the I left. Talked with a good friend and he doesn't understand all this LRT DBing stuff and after reading the book several times I feel that I am more confused. I know this what I am supposed to be doing but I just want to scream and throw in the towel. I love my W dearly but I feel that she is using me as a doormat!
Am I right to establish boundaries including no friends...hers or mine...at the house and specific days retc...?
I hate not having a pc to type on outside of work because I can't type what I really want to. This just f'ing sucks!/
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