Yeah, but he says he just tries to sleep with me to "see" if he'll feel anything. Not that he does. He says he feels NOTHING towards me. Not anger, not love, not friendship......nothing. He is numb. How on earth do you get numb?
Then when he freaked out I said, I thought we were having such a great talk, and you seemed receptive. To which he said, the only reason he thinks he listens to me over and over, is he's punishing himself. I wanted to yell BULLSHIT, but thankfully ONE bit of DB caught me before I did. I'm sorry ,but feeling sorry for HIM right now is just SO hard for me. I do feel bad that he got to this point, that I hurt him. I truly do. But to try to play the martyr juts pissed me off.
Anyway.......... I just found this link, and since I'll probably be in Divorced by not Done sooner than I know, I thought I'd post it here.. http://themediansib.com/2006/11/06/marrying-an-ex-spouse/ Will there ever be a miracle for me? I'm doubting it more and more.
He's coming to see the girls again tonight, and I've already decided to leave the whole time he is here and go grocery shopping. Trying to LRT again.
Still trying to find a job. So hard in this economy after being a SAHM for 7 years, and looking for something that will make me enough money to keep this house. Seems like EVERYTHING is impossible right now.
Chris
__________ Me:39 H:39 D:8 D:4 M:9 (T 13) Bomb 4-5-08, H moved out 6-16-08, Reconciled and H moved back in 5-31-09 Still doing GREAT a year later!!!
