Ok, I'll quickly try and update you all and then race back to be w/ D...
I forgot to mention one of her most interesting texts from Sunday.
W: "...if one more person tells me I'm pretty adn will meet someone - I might faint dead away. I don't want that. I wanted to be married to you." RTL: "...I've been told I won't have any trouble either, but I don't want that either. I only wanted to be married to you. I don't want to marry anyone else..."
I think that shows she still has real feelings for me. It seems to be as bizarre has said all along, she appears more intent on punishing me than on divorcing me.
Anyway, more texts came in yesterday after I told her that I did love her. She started them w/a jokey, playful text that I responeded to, but then she got down to it.
W: "...Reality is that I will NEVER date again. NEVER. D is worth it. Men use and abuse."
I replied I was just joking w/ my previous response and then made another joke back to her in return.
W: "... no more men!" RTL: "I've learned that men are different than women and it takes effort for men to relate to women. And women are worth the effort, but most men won't admit that women are just better in a lot of ways - especially emotionally - and thus most men won't make the effort. I no longer want to be one of those men."
W: "I am no longer in the game." RTL: "D is worth being single for me too." W: "REALLY? I give you a year." RTL: "I fell in love and married the girl I wanted to spend the rest of my life w/. Now she's left and I don't want to go through this heart break again."
No reply from W to this and she even didn't answer any of D's three attempts to call her last night to say goodnight.
So, what do I get out of this? Simply that OM has finally proven to be the Snake I've always warned her he was and she's very, very bitter. Does anyone else take this to mean that OM is out of the picture as he's burned her? I hope I'm not running blind here.
Also, I think it has caused her to stop and look back at what she did to me and our marriage. Sure she's still blaming me, but it seems as if she's now remembering all the promises OM made to her and how he worked so hard to help paint me as the villian to his Prince Charming. I can only hope that as more time passes, she'll see that his lies didn't come true and maybe, just maybe, begin to look at her side of things.
So, that is the skinny for today. I'll see her later as I drop off D around 3:30 and we'll see what her mood is today toward me. Also, I'm hoping to be able to sit down uninterrupted and catch up w/ everyone tonight so I can be back in the loop.
