SC - You've come so far, but you still deep down have fears like anyone. You've had it rough so try not to beat yourself or your H up to much when you have these little lapses.
Maybe write him a little note re what you were thinking when this was going on and what, for you, would of been good for him to do. He wants to learn and he will appreciate it I'm sure.
Hey, us guys don't play the guessing game very well when it comes to emotions. Spell it out to us in a non blaming attacking way even if you need to outline what we would gain by doing what you ask, it will solve a lot. (that's not a blame women statement BTW, it's just reality)
