I am at work, checking on you early in the morning, Tuesday 8th. Your last post made me sad. It describes the exact way I feel from time to time.
He has hurt me so much and has taken away from me the "faith" and the "dream". But, luckily there is a but here, what you & I feel and express has another side. The bright side. OK, maybe not so bright at the moment, but we will get there. Next solid realtionship we will have, will be awsome. Your time with your kids will be enough, you will make it enough, your personal view about life will be again clear and "not-confused". It needs some time.
I am nowhere close to where you are in some ways and just where you are in others. I can feel too the overwhelming feeilng you have, but it will pass. I trust the unknown will not be as bad as it seems to us. Actually I am pretty sure it will be very close to what we dreamed of, you see, we are "aware" now. Stay strong my friend K
