My new thread - The lost world!

[AbbysDad]

Thanks Jandn for chiming in. I get what you are saying. I try to invision myself with her sometimes but you are right about being around her. Once I do that, I don't want her so much although it sends me into a depressed state. This is all getting to me.

Ted, I had to bride Abby with a new toy for W's new cat. That got her to go but once there she was adorable. Picking out dinner and food for her school lunches. It was fun.

I'm starting to worry about myself. I've been GALing for a while but at the same time I'm not myself anymore. Let's see in the last month I officially "cheated" on my W. Sort of having my own EA with OW and then last Tuesday got so drunk at a friends house that I got sick all over his guest bedroom and then fled the scene at 6am. I still don't remember anything of that night and don't remember my car ride at 6am. This is not normal behavior for me and I haven't had a drink in a week. I scared myself. So I think I took GAL to a new level.

Somedays I want to pick up and take off (with Abby of course). I'm sick of the Bay Area anyway, my family is no real help beside my dad and friends come and go when they choose. My oldest brother has really been there for me and he's in Fresno. Maybe I should pick up and go there....just drop everything. The walls seem to be closing in and I'm tired of holding them back. I don't know...I think I'm just rambling on now.