I got on the prayer list for the Charlene Cares. Its nice to have it out there. Hopefully it helps! And I started running again, the burning in my chest and legs makes my heart hurt less! And its makes me feel really good.

I went through this huge ordeal with my birth control and now after many years my hormones are finally back to normal, and normal for me apparently entails a raging sex drive. I havent felt like this for years, since H and I first got together and I first started using birth control. It feels GREAT!! except for the fact that he really wants nothing to do with me. When he was here I just couldnt help telling him how much I wanted him, He didnt seem like he didnt like it, and he didnt ask me to stop, I really feel like one of the things that went wrong was my low (non-existent) libido, and I would like for him to see me as a more sexual person.

I dont know, it feels good to play with him again, and he hasnt asked me to stop yet. Things are so hard right now. I have done so much work on myself, boy if he came home things would be much different, maybe not perfect, but much different.

Last edited by bluerain; 07/08/08 04:54 AM.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...