The ML was pretty mutual. We had just had a pretty intense conversation, and I asked him to hold me. So we were just laying on the bed cuddling. From there, it gets blurry but it was very mutual.
The bad thing though, that up until today really hasn't happened, and can ONLY be a horrendous sign, is that after he finished, and finished with me, he could not get hard again, and I could see it on his face that he was SO not into it, so removed. He totally was initially, but then somewhere in the middle of it, he began to regret it and just went through the motions. It was so apparent and the most awful feeling ever.
I just still don't know how we got here.
Chris
__________ Me:39 H:39 D:8 D:4 M:9 (T 13) Bomb 4-5-08, H moved out 6-16-08, Reconciled and H moved back in 5-31-09 Still doing GREAT a year later!!!
