Well, I"m pretty sure the final nail was nailed in our marriage today. My fault. Stupid me. Stupid me for thinking he is SOMEHOW more special or insightful than other guys. Stupid me for thinking "more of the same" would get through.
In a nutshell (too exhausted emotionally to go into detail).
He brings the girls home We start discussing a very cheap townhome near us for sale, that would be cheaper to buy than renting the next year (he has agreed to keep me and the girls in our current home through the next school year to ease the transition). So we start discussing that, and next thing you know full blown R discussion. Which looks like for once it's having impact. One thing leads to another. We sleep together. To which he completely loses it afterwards, and says again....... "Chris, I'm sorry. I really am not trying to screw you up here. But I'm done. I know I'm done. Nothing is changing". HE got angry, I got angry, and he left.
I don't know. I just don't know. I really think there is no DB miracle for me. Now to be fair I haven't been practicing the principals very successfully. I'm just a failure at this.
Going to once again try to hit the LRT. HE mentioned again, he IS filing soon. Amazing how a 3 hour talk/ML session can start one place, look like it's going well, then end amazingly bad.
I'm just so spent over all this.
Chris
__________ Me:39 H:39 D:8 D:4 M:9 (T 13) Bomb 4-5-08, H moved out 6-16-08, Reconciled and H moved back in 5-31-09 Still doing GREAT a year later!!!
