Trouble on the lake erie shore #3

[Neilh23]

so weird encounter with W.

had to take wagon back to her from this weekend with girls. Helped a bit with window. She seemed irritated. I asked if she was mad at me. She said no, just upset about some things that broke in her place and.....

the fact that a woman who was part of a couple that we were friends with apparantly is talking about our sitch to other people, ones we do not know. That gets back to my W thru her friends. She's pissed at this woman. And apparantly this woman tried to set me up with another girl, and my W found out about it. that leads us into another conversation....
about how she is getting the brunt of the blame for this..that she destroyed a beautiful family. I said i feel bad that you are getting the brunt of the blame for this thing that we both did.(validated, i think) that we both messed up.
which then led to another conversation, tacked onto the one above and she wanted to talk about what we should do if one of us was dating another person. She said we got a year here, we should figure this out. We really didn't come to any conclusion because i said i didn't want to date anyone (which i really don't). She brought it up again. I said, no, you don't get it. I don't want to date anyone. She said ok. and dropped the entire conversation. I said, well, except one person. And she's like who? I gave her this look like are you serious? and she's like me? and she smiled. BUt then i said i'm not ready to date you.....and i can bet you're not ready to date me either (that was probably wrong, but oh well). I then stupidly asked if she was dating anyone and she gave the ambigious answer of maybe I am, maybe i'm not. The conversation ended there because she had some things to do.

was she probing? If you look earlier on this thread, i've heard that people have told her that they want to set me up, and she's flipped a lid.

she also is notcing the changes in how we do things with the kids. unbelievably bridgestone, she used the word "oneupsmanship" when it came to how we did things with the kids (i immediately thought of your post earlier LOL) and how I do things more with them now than i ever did. She said the kids are happier than when we were together and that we are better parents. I validated here too...... and i agreed. we are better parents now....i also said we could do those things if we were together too.

What's frustrating it that I know so much more now.........damn. I don't want to lose her permanently. I told her that again tonite (i know.....don't yell at me) and she said I know. bit of a backslide...but it felt right because it was during the whole 'dating' discussion.

thoughts?