Why don't you read Dbing/DR again with that renewed knowledge? It may spark some new ideas of how to use this new insight. If you don't use it then it is wasted, at the same time NOT letting her know you have read her diaries!! It just may help you in you conversations with her. I agree that time is a really good thing but as you are separated you have to treat each interaction as just that, a treat to make the most of.
