Helping OW??

[fooled again]

Thank you, Creed. I have a lot to think about as H was over last night (his idea) and clearly showed me that he is not "done" w/ us. After spending a very pleasant evening drinking wine and talking (no R talk), we ended up ML, which H was clearly hoping for when he came over. This leaves me wondering about what expectations he now has and where he sees things going for us in ths short term. Is he trying to see what he can get away w/ (cake eating again)? Is he trying to tell me he was wrong when he said he was "done"? I can't believe that he has suddenly figured out what he wants in 3 days, so to think that H is ready to come home is ridiculous. I told H that there would be no ML until he figured out what he wanted. Then at the first opportunity, I willingly let it happen. What message does that send him? I have some choices to make in the next few days, and I don't know how easy it will be for me to "zip the lip" and not engage in R talk. Ugh - this sucks

Also I am wondering where H stands w/ OW, if he has contacted her (since June 28th) and if he has told her again that he is "done" w/ our M so as to continue to try to have us both while he figures out what he wants. If so, I wonder if OW will call to see if H has been in touch w/ me - I can't see how she would not since she told me she would only be w/ H if he told me that they were together. This is what happened b/f and we were both pulled back into the "vortex" b/c neither of us really wanted to know the truth. I can't let that happen to me again, but last night has created a conflict in me. What to do???

For now I am simply thinking. H and I have plans to hit some golf balls this evening and the urge to say SOMETHING is nearly irrestible.

FA