Hi guys! I thought about how I acted today during my morning walk. I did overreact, and I felt badly about it. I know this is not common for my H, and I know he was probably pressured into it by the other guys w/him. He probably didn't want to seem like a weeny.
Anyway, H was saying how sorry he was over and over again this morning. I didn't even have to bring it up. He said that he was so wrong, and felt so badly. He also (thankfully) didn't remember anything I said last night (aka: Nagging). He didn't remember us discussing it, me crying, or any of it. He's such a lightweight, he kept saying "babe, I swear, I only had a few, I had no idea it would affect me like that". I asked him if he could understand why I'd be upset, and he said "I totally understand, and I was so wrong. You have every right to be upset and angry.". Then I guess he thought everything was peachy keen, but I told him that "I'm not there yet", and he was very understanding. But, we had a good talk this AM, his choice since he brought it up. We also ended up having a good laugh at his expense (his headache this morning, and the way he was so drop dead drunk). I'd never seen him like that, and I was shocked I guess. I had flashbacks to XH and how he would come in almost everyday like that. I told H that, and he asked me not to compare him w/"that", and I said I'm not, I just had a few minutes of bad memories.
All in all, he had a good time, and I'm glad he did, but I'm not happy about the not calling, and disappointing the kids, but it will pass. I have a good husband, and this is hopefully just a bump in the road.
I can see that I am much more understanding that I used to be. I would have been so nuts today after what happened if I had been the "old" Jill. But the new Jill looked at things clearly (well, except for last night when I had a bit of bad DBing, which he thankfully doesn't remember), and I'm past it. I'm not mad anymore, just disappointed, and that will pass too. He's been a wonderfull husband since we've been "piecing" so, I have to look at the whole picture I guess. Thanks for the support guys!
As for the challenge: I have been dieting, and walking everyday at 6:30, 2 miles, not much, but I have to get home to take care of the kids so H can go to work. I haven't really been participating in the challenge too much, mostly doing it on my own. I can see that I've toned up a bit, only lost 3 pounds in the last month, but I've lost some flab, so that's good. I guess toning doesn't cause too much weight loss. But, I love my walks, and I love seeing the way things fit a little better now! Glad your climb was a success! HURRAY FOR ELLIE!
