Thanks everyone. Haven't called the doc yet, but will.
Retrovaille is in 11 days. The lady called and left information for each of us. We so need this. I had a long talk with H about our relationship. I asked him to not sleep with me anymore. It sounds like a backstep, but I am hoping it is a babystep in the RIGHT direction. This non-relationship that we have has gone on too long. We both agreed that we both have to WANT to sleep together and have more feeling and meaning to it. So, we will do all that we have been doing, but when it gets to "sleep time" he is going to sleep in the spare room. I don't know, I just can't take this sleeping together every night with no meaning. It's making it worse.
The weekend was ok. I did lots of shopping which is never a good sign because it means I am not with my family...avoidance. I had lots of headaches and stomachaches, especially when home. I layed down a lot. The best part of the weekend was going to the fireworks together. My S was sooo happy which makes me sooo happy.
