Pieces surfacing, where's the puzzle picture?

[JustLearning]

DNO, Shiny - I so appreciate your words of support. If I look at the positives in this, its that I've had such support and understanding. It certainly does help.

I'm on only for a minute, I'll post more later. My girlfriend has recruited her Mom to watch our kids, so she can take me to lunch (I've not eaten much since Sat). Then she's going with me to talk to a lawyer. It's only a consult, but I need to know my options and where I stand in all this mess if he does file.

I got the 2nd installment yesterday. Was proud of myself b/c I didn't cry over this one. Another 1 1/2 pages, and alot of saying I don't want you to take this the wrong way, I don't want to hurt you, I'm just writing the thoughts in my head, etc etc.

The one thing that stands out for me is that he says he loves me (first time he's said it since he left) but like a relative. That hurts. He's comfortable with me, he says he thinks he could be friends with me forever, but that the passion, the husband and wife feelings aren't there and haven't been for a long time.

I'll fill in more, but I have a question. He said that he'd call today to see if I understand any of this. Do I talk to him? I don't really want to, not really sure if I can ignore the call if I'm here. What do I do?

I also thought about writing a letter back to him asking some questions about some things he said that are really unclear to me. Maybe it'll be easier to communicate by e-mail for a while?

What do you all think? Please help, this is way too hard!!

JL