Well last night was the wedding reception I had been planning for and it was a lot of fun! I had a dress that was very sexy, so not me, but I wore it proudly (especially to show off the 20lbs I've lost!) and felt great! The dress was black, so of course I painted my nails, fingers and toes (another thing I don't do) a bright beautiful red, and had strappy black shoes that showed off the red toenails.

H never did answer me to whether or not he was going with me or not. The silence was loud enough for me. I figured he wouldn't. I was right. And was actually ok about it. What did bother me was the lack of response. I felt it was just downright rude to not give me an answer even if it was no.

The upside was that he came to the house after S6's soccer game to mow grass. And he was still here when I got ready to leave. So he saw me all Diva'd up! Of course he never said anything, but I know he noticed! I just smiled at him and said See ya! And off I went!

A positive thing also happened. My Mom was here (going with me) and she went over to him and kissed him goodbye. He accepted it. I hope he realizes that Mom does not hate him. He avoids my family and most friends like the plague. She only wants whats best for us and is supportive of my efforts to try to restore my M.

Well I now have to go get my S9 from his dads. They took him for me yesterday after we discovered S9 has the chicken pox! So in about 2 weeks or so, S6 will probably be down with them. At least school is almost over, only 2 days left, that S9 will miss (he's not happy about it!).

Thank goodness I've had them! JL

Life is not measured in the breaths we take, but in the moments that take our breath away...