Hi, I'm new to the forum.

[The Wifey]

(((Lola, Jeff)))

I am pretty good this morning. Friday my H and I took the motorcycle into Letchworth State Park for several hours, stopping several places along the park. It has a beautiful gorge, waterfalls, etc. I told him how it touched me that he could recognize beauty. It was a very nice, romantic even, time together.

Around 2:30 we went to his mom's to see his cousins that came up from Alabama and then we had a picnic at the house.

Friday we went back to the park on the motorcycle, but led the cousins/kids. We did some more touring and then spent some time watching the kids play on the playground.

All this was good. H said it was like having me be his girlfriend.

Unfortunately I heard Shania Twain's song on the ride home "You're still the one" that has always been special to me. I came home crying when we took the motorcycle home to get the car. I calmed down but was really out of sorts when we went to watch fireworks.

Sunday morning I asked and asked to go with him on the motorcycle. He insisted that I not go and that he needed his space. I'm glad he did, though.

I was asking for too much, too soon. I had to back off a little (a lot!)

I did laundry and cleaned the house after he left. Then I went to my mom's and laid out in the sun. I had dinner with my parents and then went home.

By the time he came home I was just happy to see him. I had chilled out and he looked at me with what I could swear was relief. I even offered to give him a back rub before he went to sleep, which he liked very much after the weekend of riding.

I'm reading "The new rules of marriage" which was recommended to me by my C. I'd recommend it if you are looking for another good book to read.

I can see how I have to work on me, my self confidence, my feelings in order to get our r to change and improve. Today I am just grateful for the weekend we spent together.

I also have my camping trip to look forward to this weekend. I'm going alone with the dog. H will have an entire weekend of freedom and I will be alone in my little head. I need this.