Well I also found a receipt for some stuff she bought before she left on the 3rd. It was for 3 packs of condoms, massage oil and a few other things. This only leads me to believe she is with this other man. I have stopped snooping and don't care what she is doing. But I was helping my daughter clean the house before she and my S were leaving on the 5th. My W likes to keep all her receipts so I was picking up all the bags from the clothes she bought and was taking all the receipts out so she could save them, thats when I stumbled across it. I don't care what she does anymore, it hurts like hell but I am going to be a better me for myself and for my kids! That is all I can do and hopefully she will come out of her fog!
I think the reason we have been getting along so well was to make this easier on her and me. That is my thinking maybe I am wrong. She is so deadset on getting this D, but I don't understand why she is dragging her feet. It is so frustrating to not know but maybe that is a blessing not knowing.
It is hard for me to go and GAL because I just don't have to many friends out here and have no family what so ever here. I don't have to many people to talk to and it is frustrating. I don't even know where to go to meet people. I thought when I went to the bar that I would actually try to pick up a woman. The more I thought about it the more I became disgusted! I don't see how she can do it so easy, and not have any second thoughts about it! To me since we are still married I consider it an affair and morally wrong!! Obviously she has no morals and no care in the world for anything but her greedy ass!
I am so digusted right now that I don't even want to speak or see her. With the kids being gone for 2 weeks I figured I would go totally dark and have no contact with her. I will see if she calls and go from there. What reallypisses me off is that she will do all of this and make my D watch my son so she can go party it up with her "friends", if this is the lifestyle she wants then she can have it. The more this goes on the more I think she is having a MLC. None of what she does makes any sense and the way she acts is totally out of character for her. I don't know how she can do this weekend after weekend and not feel any guilt for leaving the kids behind so she can have her fun.
As you can tell I am extremely mad right now and venting away! I hope that when she goes to court for her DUI that they give her jail time in tent cty, maybe that will wake her dumba$$ up. If any of you know what tent city is you will know, if not google tent city with sheriff Joe Arpaio here in Phoenix. She deserves to go to jail and suffer for a bit!!!
Anyways enough of this just had to get this off my chest!
AD I have been keeping up with yours just have not posted much, will get to you tomorrow after I cool off a bit!!
