Helping OW??

[fooled again]

I don't know steelersfan, sometimes I wonder what is the right thing to do. Sometimes I wonder if it really even matters what we do or don't do, the outcome will be what it will be. I used to not believe in destiny b/c I hated the idea that my future was predetermined. But over and over in the past 2 yrs I have been hit with evidence that things happen for a reason, there are no coincidences and sometimes it just doesn't matter what we do.

I saw Kung Fu Panda w/ H & D a few weeks ago and the wise old turtle said to the teacher (I'm paraphrasing here) "In trying to avoid your destiny it will find you that much faster" (or something to that effect). It sure made me think about my sitch.

I really do appreciate your concern. I will figure this out, I know I will. But I do have to trust my instinct - I have ignored it for far too long and suffered the consequences. I believe our Maker guides us, but I don't believe S/He does all the work. We must take responsibility for our lives, that is one thing I believe beyond a shadow of a doubt.

And while writing this, my H just called (that happens alot). We chatted about his game, what I did this afternoon, what I was doing tonight. He asked if I wanted company, so I said "sure", not sounding too excited or pleased, just okay w/ the idea. Which incidentally is exactly how I feel. I'm laying off the pressure - he said he was done. Though I am curious if he will head into R talk territory. I'm finished w/ that stuff unless he brings it up, and even then, I'll be doing alot of listening.

No word from OW today - maybe she's decided she needs to move on herself. I have said all that I have to say to her, any more would be redundant.

FA