I think I'm so down because for a while I think I felt I was fine without her, almost ready to move on. I'm sure that's a typical feeling. But this last week I think I've had baby steps forward. W wanted to know what I've been doing (even spied my cell phone), she said I'm looking good, actually she said I'm getting too skinny, we've had a couple of real conversations (the first in a while) and she even went out of her way to invite me over.
Maybe this where the down feeling is coming from. Because now the week will start and we'll probably not talk much. Also, with these positive signs I'm also getting that bad feeling of wondering what she's upto, if she still with OM, etc. I almost want that "I don't care feeling" back.
Well I guess I'll give the kid a bath and watch Happy Feet with her. She always brings me up.
M 35 W 28 D 4
Bomb 4/28/08 Found out about PA 05/14/08 Separated 5/25/08 (not legally)
