Separated 5 years.

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I don't think he even thinks about whether or not I am dating. He always seems happy to see me, friendly, but not overly so when we do see each other.

It is only recently that I have seen less of the familiarity we had between each other. I could always engage his attention with conversation, but recently, his mind is somewhere else when we talk, which makes me think that he is involved seriously with someone else now. He's very loyal, in his way, so if he were falling for someone else, he would feel guilty about talking to me.

I don't know. I'm sure I should have just filed a couple of years ago and been done with it. The same result, only I wouldn't have looked so pitiful by waiting 5 years.

I think I will try the group session, just to practice setting goals and following through.

The craziest thing I could do right now? Take a big trip somewhere, plan it all by myself, and then go. And don't tell him about it til after I got back or something.