Hope your weekend is going well. I saw the 435 AM post and thought you probably were not sleeping well. I find that the time when I first wake up and am lying in bed is when I "rent space in my head", and play over the whole horrible mess. I need to get out of bed right away. It sounds like you continue to do well. I can relate about dropping old friends during the worst of it. I couldn't find enjoyment in anything, Making the bed was an exhausting task. I feel much better prepared to deal with this tsunami, but I imagine when she starts talking about the actual divorce, it will make me anxious again.
I want to thank you for looking in on me from time to time. I'm so happy that naother preson on this board can understand the abyss that I was in. The utter despair and hoplessness was overwhelming. Like you, I am now just sad, but not on the verge of ending it as I once was! Have a nice day. Do you have the summer off? I go back around August 8th. I fortunately aquired 30 days of paid leave from Iraq, which I am using to get myself out of the house and settled.
