Hope4us struggle, part 6

[Hope4us]

I appreciate the comment Sakaro. And I can see how you would think I'm pursuing like crazy, but really I'm not.

Thurs night I went out without asking her if she wanted to go. I do that once or twice a week. I usually ask her if she wants to go with me one other time during the week. So I'm going out 2-3 times a week and ask her if she wants to go along only one of those times.

Yes, yesterday I did ask her to go. And I just said "I'm going out to get something to eat if you want to go along". She said no so I went anyway. It's not like I pitifully ask her if she wants to go and if she says no I just sit at home.

Asking her to go to the picnic today was something I had to ask. S16 told me when I talked to him yesterday that he thought mom might come to the picnic with us. I am going to leave this morning before she will be out of bed so I had to ask just in case she did want to go.

Don't worry, I'm detaching plenty, but there's still that part of me that wants this to move faster than it is. I'm just ready to move forward with or without her and the hard part is we seem to be making some progress, but it's just not fast enough for me. Heck, yesterday she was talking and talking about our family trip to Disney in Aug and then the "just us" trip back to Disney in Oct. She was talking and talking about different things we need to do prior to going, she told me her plans this week, I mean, if she wasn't sleeping on the couch, you'd never know anything was wrong.

Question for Puppy if/when you read this.....Given her seemingly obvious attempts at reassuring herself that I'm attracted to her, do you think it's time for me to try to initiate some physical contact or given that my lovingly detachment seems to be working, just don't go there and let her miss it more? It was freakin killing me yesterday the way she was just about throwing her self out there. I wanted to go grab her and do things on the deck that would get us arrested!