Guess what! I just had dinner with H!! So good to actually have something happening to write about.
So on Saturday I had told H that I'd broken the coffee machine and maybe he could help me fix it (I know that he loves to help me in a practical way). And good as gold Sunday afternoon he pops over with a screw-driver and attempted to fix it. Then he was kind of looking around the house, so I mentioned the boxes that I've packed with his stuff.... it went OK but definitely changed the feel of the conversation - I said he could leave the boxes as long as he needed to at my place.... Anyway he left but it didnt feel great - especially after how good yesterday had been.
So I was brave and called him about 20 minutes later and asked if he was hungry and wanted to catch up for dinner. He suggested a place and we met - again we had heaps to talk about. But he got teary twice during dinner. I said "its good to see you" and he said "yeah its really good to see you" - and I laughed and said something sarcastic. But then he really stopped and said that he really meant it, and it was good to see me and he missed me!!!! And he got all teary. I changed the subject to sport (total 180 for me!!). I told him about coffee date guy who has turned into a bit of a stalker, sending me heaps of text messages etc etc. And H was really keen to go and sort stalker guy out! Yay!! And then H got all teary telling me something awful his sister had said about me (it wasnt that awful, but had made H really mad) and how he wanted to defend me. I cant believe he got so emotional.
And then the best bit.
As we were leaving H: I really mean it, its good to see you E: Yeah well we can do it more often H: I'd really like that, you know cause I miss you (Hugs E - in a full body hug) (kisses E's cheek) (E rubs H back) H: because BABE your still my best friend E: (makes mmm-ing noises, reassuring but not any pressure) H: somedays I wake up thinking crap what have I done, and other days I feel great E: yeah I know, I understand (break from hug) (H is very teary - wipes tears away!!!) E: well I'll see you around we make small chit chat, laughing smiling etc.
How good is that! I so wanted to kiss him when we were eating dinner. Must play it cool and let him come to me.... But hopefully he will make more of an effor to see me?? Feels like maybe we are heading towards friendship stage. I cant wait to make him chase me, I'm really looking forward to that bit! I must be calm, and not get my hopes up. But my heart is doing a small dance tonight.
