You are going to have to pull yourself together. If you feel as strong in your heart about him as you say you do then you need to find your confidence and STAND for you marriage. I have read that most PA's last about 6 months. Do you have anyone to talk to other than on here? What reasons other than the OW do you think he may have for leaving? Is he not attracted to you physically or emotionally or something else? I don't mean this to sound weird or anything, but D is spiritual warfare. The devil works at trying to get marriages divorced. The bible says that God hates divorce and does not condone it. The devil will constantly attack you he will not give up thats just the way it works, but it is also why you have to stand your ground and stand for what you believe in. God is always with you, he waits on you, you have free will, he will not force your decisions, but he loves you. Kristin I know how you feel when you say you feel like you are dying. This is so emotional, trust me I have done my share of crying and if truth be known I'm probably not done crying, but I am looking to the Lord for strength. I pray everyday that my W would return home, hoping that she will walk through the door one day and be here to stay. One day things look on the up another day it looks like you've lost all ground, makes you feel like they are just reaching in and ripping your heart out while you watch them do it and it seems not to care or bother them at all. My W doesn't really come around and hardly ever calls. I pretty sure she isn't having any PA's or EA's but it sure leaves me so lonely. The love of my life treats my like I don't exist at least that's what it feels like. I will try to be here for you, I know how it feels, I'm looking for support myself.
