Helping OW??

[fooled again]

At least that's what it feels like I'm doing. She calls it therapy for her - I guess it's therapy for me too. But also I'm trying to make her understand that I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON MY MARRIAGE. But I'm jumping ahead (yes this sounds like a cheesy novel, I know).

If anyone is confused, join the club. My last thread was The Ultimatum. Some of you asked me to keep you posted, but this is a whole new encyclopedia of crazy, or maybe just another volume in the set. So I thought it deserved a new thread...

Had a couple of weeks of "piecing", then while H was away on business I sensed a shift. Tried to talk to him about it when he got back - he said he was feeling too much pressure. I said I could give him all the patience in the world as long as OW is not in the picture. He said she wasn't. We went camping for four wonderful days (his idea), but on the last day he was distant, a little testy. We came home & I had to go away for a day. While I was gone I talked to H on the phone & asked about his state of mind. He said he's still feeling pressure, he's confused, doesn't know what he wants. I pushed him, he finally said he's done w/ us & knows he has to let me go. Was I relieved? Not on your life.

I came back from my short trip, H picked me up from the airport, we had lunch together then he brought me home. I tried to keep it together but I just couldn't - I cried. He left. I called his cell a few minutes later & said I thought our M deserved a better goodbye. I guess I was looking for closure, or something. Yeah, I know, I know, bad idea but sometimes you just can't help yourself (apply 2/4 here *). He got frustrated & angry & said he'd call me later. Haven't heard from him since. Guess he's back in the tunnel - who knows how far.

I tend to go on and on in my posts so I'll stop here and post more in a bit. Trust me, it gets better & better.

FA