Oh man. My heart is breaking. He brought the papers back today. This morning was hard. but the afternoon went well, we laughed, I did his laundry, I made dinner, we had a good day. Then he took the dog to the beach and when he came back he brought the papers in. I saw them but ignored them. I just tried to stay calm and putter around the kitchen.
Then he said "theres no good time to do this, but heres the paperwork" I told him that I didnt want a divorce, especially while hes having an affair. I dont want to be replaced. Its so unfair. I love him so much, I asked him if he missed me, he said no (of course he said that, he has her) but he worries about me. I told him that I dont beleive its right to divorce without even trying and we cant try if his heart is somewhere else, he said he cant change where his heart is. (didnt seem to tough when he left me!)
He tried to leave the papers, but I took them out to him. I dont want to look at them. Our whole life lined out in little columns. I just texted him and told him that he could bring the papers back and we could talk about it. I dont know what to do. I really dont want to do anything drastic while hes having a PA. And I feel really strongly about that. But what am I asking him to come talk about then? Any suggestions on how to handle this will help me.
Just when I start to get my head back on straight it all falls in again. I thought we were having a good day.
I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...
