Since she dropped the bomb we have been getting on really well (as we did before the bomb was dropped). We had a really good evening 2 weeks ago and the following morning i asked how that felt - she said that is how it would be when we good friends.
She's lonely because she is missing me and broken i presume from the guilt and the hurt she's causing the children and me.
Spoke to her last week re other man - namely when it all began. She met him 3 days before dropping bomb with no physical contact - purely emotional, Sounds far fetched but i believe her.
She said that "he was an anchor for her to help her from re entering the relationship after she had dropped the bomb" Took all my control not to blow my top.
So if she hadn't met him we would be trying at out marriage and everyone including the kids would be a whole lot happier.
Might quiz her on that cos it makes no sense. If you need "help" to stay out of R - should you really be out of it ????
She also said she loved me but could not live with me. I didn't ask but she said she was not coming back. Since she moved out i've lost count of how many times she has told me she loves me. I don't tell her - she absolutely knows how i feel
Had a huge cuddle goodbye - she initiated - before she set off for her 2 weeks break (in OM neigbourhood)
She seems determined not to try at R. I think she has experienced a lot of hurt and unhappiness from the R and just does not want to risk more. She has accepted that i have change but i don't think for her it has completely sunk in.
She gives the complete impression - it is over - get over me - move on
Went away for weekend snow kiting (big kite and snow board). Can't enjoy anything - 90% of the time she is on my mind. GAL is a good idea but EVERYTHING i do i still think of her.
