I haven't been around for awhile. I have been spending time by myself just trying to wrap my mind around all of this. I no longer belong in this forum, but I don't want to leave it right now. You aren't going to kick me out, are you?
Here is a little update on what has been going on. On Tueday H signed the papers for the divorce. On Wednesday the lawyer's secretary called and said "You are divorced, the judge signed the papers." Now...I am not offically divorced but I am divorced. That doesn't make any sense to me. But he has 30 days to appeal (but he doesn't know that) so by Aug 2, it will be final.
H calls at least 3 times a day now. Typically his first call is to ask me if he has gotten any mail. His 2nd call is to ask me a question about something (who is the mortage with, who is the car loan with...etc etc). And the 3rd call is to ask me if he can come to the house to get something he has left. I know that he is just calling to keep in touch with me.
He also tries to make me feel sorry for him. Now in a way I do feel sorry for him because he is so pathetic and brought all of this on himself when he had a perfectly good and normal life. But I don't let him know in any way that I feel sorry for him. If anything HE should be feeling sorry for ME. He goes into these stories about how hard it is to find an apartment. I remind him that the deal was he got the money and had to be out of the house in 14 days. Now it is 11 because I am couting down the day. (oh...almost 10!) Then he will sit in his car outside of the house for Lord knows how long because he has "no where else to go." He sure had somewhere to go for the past 7 months and at 2am to boot!
Oh and get this. OW wanted me to add her as a friend on myspace. WTF!! I changed my cell phone number so that she won't contact me and have done everything to not be around her. What is with these people?????
I dont' understand why everyone here keeps saying that I am strong. I sure don't feel strong. A day doesn't go by that I don't cry....and I mean bawl. The other day I came here to post something and that video FG posted for me made me cry so hard that I couldn't see to post. Sometimes I just sit at home and cry and cry and cry. I am trying to learn how to heal from this, but it is all so fresh that I think it will take awhile.
Last edited by Starshyne; 07/06/0802:26 AM.
Me-31 H-38 M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs No kids Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06 Found out about OW 12-24-07 Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08 OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08 OW is back 4-19-08 H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08 Filed for divorce 6-5-08 Divorced 7-2-08
