I am telling you people say the dam*dest things when they don't know what to say.
"i think one of the things that's bugging me is that this life i'm living right now......was chosen for me. Almost as if I didn't get a say in the matter....."
Think about what you just wrote and all the feeling behind it. All the not sleeping, feeling lost, no hope.. etc,etc. You should not have to think about it hard.. you are right in the midst of it.
Now this is going to sound mean.. its not meant to be.
That right there is exactly how your wife felt as she walked thru her day. She wanted things to change.. She wanted X.. She did not have a say in it either.
I can't say this any more clearly.. You BOTH chose this path. You did it TOGETHER. Simply because you had no idea how to CHANGE it. That is why the choices you make now.. mean more than they ever did. I am telling you as soon as you can move your perspective enough to see it.. things will change.
Its great that you come and post when you feel down.. keep it up.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
