Where is the real me? What do I want?

[Purple]

Yeah our library has audiobooks, but it's usually Jane Eyre type stuff.

Heh...I realised when I read my post again after reading your reply that it could have been taken that I was peeved. I'm not...at least not at my friends here. More angry at myself that I am not getting anywhere on my journey. Right now I'm peeved that I am having trouble working out whether being anxious is actually 'me' or if being anxious is 'not me' and is the result of everything that has happened. Okay...let me think about that a little more. I've always been anxious and not wanting to hurt peoples feelings. Now, just becuase I have always been that way, does _that_ mean that's who I am? I hope not. I don't really want to be like that. I know I can change, I just don't know if it's possible to do it and carry on a relationship that needs a whole lot of work.

I've got the Verbally Abusive Relationship, His Needs Her Needs, the 5 Love languages, Boundaries; Eat, Pray, Love; You don't have to take it any More: Co Dependent No More; Facing Love Addiction; Where to Draw the Line; How to give a Mind Blowing BJ; Transform Your Life; Loving and Listening; Women who Love too Much; Healing your emotional self.....and several more that I've borrowed from the library. Phew...I'm tired now!

Hmm...dispatch? Haven't heard of them/him/it?