Germ: I truly feel that my wife is facing demons with her lies/infidelity/homosexuality. I feel pity for her and know that she needs prayer right now to right her life. If I'm in pain over this, she must be hurting soo much to act the way that she is. Maybe I'm wierd. Maybe I'm too compassionate. My family doesn't understand why I'm not angry.
I pray for my W also, I think she is hurting also, You are not wierd, compassion is the perfect word, I try to be kind and compassionate to my W also. I don't show my anger, but look at my prior post I am angry, I just hold it inside of me. I know thats not healthy and I hope time will help me get over my anger, but on the outside, I just go about my business and appear as if nothing is wrong.
Journal: W called this morning, is going to take the kids to the pool, and I'm going to move all the kids into their new bedroom. She said she would move the bunk beds over to her apartment tomorrow, I told her I would help. (so I get to see W place tomorrow for the first time) She said she couldn't be over until late becasue she works late on Saturday night. I said I know don't worry about it, you know the kids and I won't be home from church until 11:00, ---- she said "I know; you are so righteous"
Her tone, indicated she wasn't giving me a compliment, more like she was annoyed that I reminded her that we go to church on Sunday, like she didn't already know this.
I said, you know I'm only trying to do what is right for the kids. Small talk and we said good bye.
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
