Where is the real me? What do I want?

[Purple]

Ya know...the other thing is that it is Saturday night and he came to the house on thursday. It has taken me this long to a) realise that I actually have a real issue about this and, b) to (almost) do something about it, and c)now I'm still fretting over whether I should send the email or not! Who knows when he'll read it?

Why is it taking me so long to get resolved enough to do something? I think I am anticipating that he will react badly to it, which in turn makes me pussyfoot around, which p1sses him off regardless.

arrgghhh I feel so ...wussy! (rhymes with pussy but means chicken sh1t)