Trying ... well if you can call it that, I guess.

[Abbey]

Hi Abbey,

Thats a good idea about the supplements, I've heard they can help, but what is an elliptical machine !?

http://www.globalfitness.com/about_elliptical_trainer.htm

It's easier on the joints than running etc. Allows resistance training on upper body. Also saves me from outdoor walking in the winter - asthma.

I also find it draining seeing my ex. I have felt like lying low tonight and often tell people I feel exhausted afterwards. Its not as bad know we do it more regularly than it was in the early days. I thuoght it was becuase I was behaving rather like him in that it has led me to wear the mask..

It's the mask, yes. Not being able to be one's self, yet, you know that in order for you to reach them, you have to show your self. Strange place to be in. The second, third and fourth "second guessing" it feels like we have to do in itself is enough to send ya around the bend, isn't it. All that extra thought...enough to zap out the best of us. Mine's also re-writing history so he's putting on a mask and thinking he's shedding another one. He's so badly in need of therapy himself, but he won't get it, not yet anyway.

You dont say how old you are or how long you have been together and also, I am amazed, is he seeing a MOW then with 4 kids !?

I've added a sig, but have to revise it... get this to add to the insanity. He's 55, she's 27. *bangs head hard on table repeatedly*

Abbey