Well the kids had a great 4th of july bash. S16's friends brought over fireworks and food and I grilled up burgers and dogs for them. D13 had a good time also but I know she was still in a funk about not being with h...or his family. Even if they didn't want me or H at the gathering, they should have asked the kids to come for a bit. I have always said that I would just drop them off if they were invited. Oh well.
Anyway Snodderly, I think H probably did go to the party or did do something. He will put on his mask (the 18 year old personna) and go. He seems to be pulling further and further away from us. It's like he stops by and checks in over the weekend...then we hear nothing from him during the week. He isn't even tm'ing d13 at night (although she is so tired from camp she falls asleep early and I have told him that).
So I guess I will leave him out there. Tuesday will be our 19th wedding anniversary. The 3rd since he moved out. I hope the day comes and goes quickly. It is too painful to think of when I feel like my whole life with this man has been a lie...and has been tossed aside for the new life he is living. It is like the kids and I are just an appendage that he has left dangling.
Sorry for the blahs....just how i feel my R with H is....hopeless.
